3/6 Monday, my very first diary

This is my n-th attempt of keeping an English blog. 

Why could I never keep up, is a stupid question to ask. I just could not be bothered to write something periodically, when I could instead lie down and watch Netflix or refresh the timeline of my Twitter account.

English was never a concern to me really. Although I've always had the yearning to be closer to a native speaker, I kind of knew that I was still better than the average. Also, my yearning to become better at English just could not beat my laziness. 

Then what brought me to start a whole new blog, and this time, be ever so serious about it? Did I suddenly lose all my confidence and started to feel insecure? No, that is not the case. In fact, I have always been insecure. As contradictory as it may sound, I have always felt insecure about my English because although I knew it was better than average, it still was way far from being perfect. 

The motivation comes from a totally different, and unexpected area. Money. 

Recently my husband and I have been looking into our expenditures and funds all over again. While doing so, we rummaged through all our bank accounts, to find all the bits of amounts of money that was sleeping somewhere. I remembered that I had once opened a Google Adsense account and had linked it with my now-hibernating Egloos blog, where I posted mostly diaries and some beauty reviews. The blog was never really active to be true, so I had no hopes of getting extra money out of it. I was just curious to see how Google Adsense worked, and that was the reason I'd connected that blog, because Naver wouldn't let me. To my surprise, over the couple of years I have abandoned that blog, it had generated some meaningful clicks and my income was over 10 bucks. I couldn't help but think, what if I try really hard and post something periodically? What if that blog generates at least a dollar a month? 

Yes, I admit, the motivation here is not as pure as I have tried to make it appear. But it is also true that I do in fact like English, and want to become better at it. 

Wow, I really put an effort into writing this. First posting pressure, I guess? 

This took me like... more than 30 minutes? A lot more than it should. I won't be able to keep up for too long this way. Will try to be more relaxed next time.